Monday, July 13, 2009

The next chapter

I’ve avoided writing this posting for the last several days, but I can’t wait any longer. Unfortunately, the last two embryos didn’t stick into their Nest. I think that deep down I thought that “if I don’t write about it; it isn’t true.”

I’ve run through a gamut of emotions since finding out the news – mad, sad, frustrated, angry, [insert your favorite synonym for pissed off here]. But, strangely, I haven’t had a complete meltdown yet. Sure, I’ve been upset, but I haven’t had the deep sobbing session that I keep waiting for – maybe it hasn’t fully hit me yet.

I also thought I’d go into hyperdrive with my usual coping mechanisms, but so far, no wine or Oreos have been consumed. I’ve put things in shopping carts on line, but haven’t clicked the purchase button. Perhaps I’m in a little bit of denial.

God bless our dear Nest. It hasn’t been easy on her, either. It was quite a shock – we both thought she was pregnant. And, damn the pregnancy-like symptoms that progesterone gives.

Not sure what is next for us, but Jack Bauer and I are ready to shake things up a bit.

Thank you for your support, prayers and fertility juju that everyone has sent our way. The community of infertile and fertile bloggers is awesome!

Over the course of the next week or so, I’ll be transitioning over to my new blog – Fertility Foibles – Join me there for more of the lighter side of infertility.

Our journey with our Nest is complete, but our story isn’t over; it’s just a new chapter.


  1. You are an amazing woman. I am lucky to be married to you. When I married you (almost 12 years ago), I married you: your wonderful smile, your sense of humor, your caring heart, not your ovaries.

    If I knew then how this was going to turn out - I would not change a thing.

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  3. I am so sorry to hear the news - this is a setback, but I have faith that you will be a mommy. Why we have such a circuitous route to traverse in order to get there, I know not. I am looking forward to following your new blog.

  4. My thoughts are with you and Jack Bauer...this sucks. No platitudes, it sucks, plain and simple. It is unfair and super sucky..I am sorry :(

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